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Tuesday, 01 May 2012

  • RC and Judging People

    It has recently been brought to my attention that a game that I have been playing online for the past 3 years is now being retired. Meaning all my hours of work and what nots… are now going to disappear, the pretty floor layouts, that I have made. The pretty outsides that I devoted time to will all poof into the void that is the black hole of cyber space…large corporate take over. The whole thing is a huge disappointment and the fact that the current theme is goodbye party makes the whole thing even more wrong. The significant other of course found the whole thing hysterical, but he was obviously not as invested as I was, because I started playing almost 3 years vs. him who I convinced him to join so I could mooch off his ingredients. That was maybe 6 months ago at most and he wasn’t exactly a daily player anyway.

    Moving on….My SO and I recently got into a argument about judging people. After a happy hour, he stated that one of my friends seemed elitist through the certain things she said. He gave an example of her talking about someone in the program that was younger and not as far along in the program and she said it in a way (to him) that implied that she was better.

    The conversation continued as I was trying to figure out where this statement came from and he continued to tell me. I'm not saying it's a bad thing I am just saying she seem elitist she may not be. So I continue my barage of why's because I really just don't understand how he could think she is this way.

    He then continues to say she just says certain things that irk him and that he was not passing judgement, but to him she seemed elitest. I told him that he was passing judgement by calling her elitist. He stated that he wasn't saying elitist is bad, so it wasn't passing judgement and the conservsation, basically he stated that being elitist wasn't meant to be a bad thing and that he wasn't judging.. Everything with this was confusing, because to be calling someone elitist is a judgement and not only that, but he stated that he wasn't saying to be a bad thing. But my deal is when would it be a good thing? I feel like it can only really come out in one direction

    No body wants to hear that their friend is elitist or "only seems that way" and really no good can be made from saying such things.

    The conversation ended with me saying well then I guess we have different definitions of what the word judgement is... so now I am on the computer looking it up ....

    to form a judgment or opinion of; decide upon critically: You can't judge a book by its cover. this is what dictionary.com says I would say calling someone elitist or saying they seemed a certain way would count under the to form an opinion of....

    What's your opinion of the word judge? What does it mean to you?

Monday, 16 April 2012

  • Comparison

    I try so hard not to compare myself with others. It causes low self-esteem and whatever else. 

    But what if there are only two of you? And one person gets it and the other person doesn't...Sometimes I wonder when I am going to feel like I'm the one who did a nice job... That I am the one that people like think is competent or like...

    Is this because I am competitive?  Do I take these things to a non-healthy level?  One of my professors says that its all in my head, and that it is not true, but when many of the major marking stones are taken and I am the one seen as being less than... it makes it hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

    1) Test Librarian Position Her1 Me 0

    2) Candidacies Her 2 Me 0

    3) Completing a Masters Faster Her 3 Me 0

    4) Better Scoring Track Record Her 4 Me 0

    5) Passing First Solo Case Her 5 Me 0

    6) Mobile Clinic Position Her 6 Me 0

    I realize that there are other things I probably am doing better at surviving in like statistics, having a mini social life, and relationships.  But realistically these aren't my main main focus, they are just happy coincidences that sort of have fallen into place.

    I would just like my turn in the sun, and maybe it needs to hit me...maybe I need to be okay with not having one. Why does it bother me that someone is better than me? It doesn't mean that I am horrible... it just means that I'm not as good...

    I think it would be easier if I was lost in a crowd, then I wouldn't feel like I was the "loser" I would just be like the rest of the majority that didn't get first.

Thursday, 09 February 2012

  • My Rant for the Day

    There is a nice little blogging sub categorey in xanga with the topic of autism.  I was so excited when I first saw it and now I feel like I need to just stop reading things on it.  Mothers post on there saying I have an autistic child! Okay.... let's hold up... that's not even the most appropriate way to describe your child.  yes your child has autism, but your child should not be called an autistic child. A person would never call someone with cancer a "cancerous person" so why do that to your child who happens to have autism.

    There are also people that post things that have no understanding of what autism is.  A girl posted something about her boyfriend and how she thinks he's autistic because he is shy and socially awkward. WOW! Just because someone is a little weird does not automatically mean they have autism. 

    Another person was calling autism an epidemic, because all of a sudden it seems like there are a ton of people that have it.  This understanding of the situation is bananas.... just crying wolf saying that foods and vaccines etc play a role in this business and that the FDA isn't doing a good job.  I just wowers....that man that stated that vaccines cause autism seriously manipulated his findings. Dude is in jail now. His work has stopped many children from preventing other serious illnesses.  He caused so much harm and apparently this horrible understanding of the situation is still being perpetuated.

    Okay end of rant.... I'm not sure who moderates what gets published up in there.... but yeah...not... cool

     

Wednesday, 08 February 2012

  • Valentines Day

    Someone wrote on the home page about candy hearts for VD. I immediately thought of vd the sexually transmitted business not the day in Feb. I was finding it amusing. I love valentines day. It makes me happy. I like looking at all the pink and red things in the stores. I love how chocolates are arranged in pretty boxes and stuffed animals that are soft and fuzzy seem to be sold everywhere.

    It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside just thinking about it. I think about couples sharing the way they feel about each other and other secret admirers possibly venturing out from their shroud of mystery.

    What should I get my wonderful man for his birthday and also for Valentines day? His birthday falls soon after Valentines day.

Thursday, 26 January 2012

  • Joe Paterno and the TRUTH

    I know Joe... okay well I don't really know him, but living in State College and feeling the massive support all over Happy Valley has been awe-inspiring. I know I'm not super spirity for Penn State. I've only attended this school for the past 3 years, and in that time I have only attended 3 football games and no other sports.

    But one thing I do know... Joe owned this town. When the news broke about the whole scandal, I felt the collective town's heart break. It is unquestionably horrible what that man who shall not be named did, but the fact that all of the sudden the whole nation's eyes were on us. The campus was haunted by van's with their annoying satellites and helicopters overheard.

    Then came the firing over the phone of JoePa people across the country threw verbal stones at the wonderful man that made Happy Valley so happy. And the students here rioted...candle light vigils were held, letters were written in support of a wonderful man, but the world didn't understand. Why were people supporting this man. Why?

    I don't really understand how to explain it either. I just know there has been an out pouring of support and togetherness at a level that I've never felt before. I tried last night to explain to a friend what this whole experience has been like and I couldn't. I really couldn't think of anyone parallel that I could say...well its like if this person died, but a bigger deal because he has masks sold of his face, and bobble heads, and shirts with his name, and books, that seem to be sold everywhere...It's just different it's a small town feel and everyone wants to be a part of celebrating someone's life.

    It's like the end of an era...that I got the very tail end of and never even understood how meaningful it could possibly be. Maybe there is some regret in there... maybe not...

    I think its more of a sympathetic thing...so many people knew and loved this man. And were affected by him..by hearing things he's done, or through actual encounters. I think there is a part of me that is sad thinking about how he got fired before he died...but who knew this was his last season?

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